This post is long overdue lol. Have been meaning to write this since 2 weeks ago, but was never able to get started.
Anyway, I was looking back at this past year, and I realised, that I’ve done so incredibly little, and yet I’ve done so much too. You see, in actuality, I’ve only done 2 things last year, the internship in church, and the mission trip on Logos Hope. And yet, these 2 things have given me so much experience, more than I’ve asked for, and they have also step by step led me to where I am today.
So I graduated in December 2014, and had no idea what I wanted to do, apart from the fact that I knew I did not want to do anything that was related to my degree in Mass Communication. Not that I didn’t like the work. I love it. But I also decided that I wanted a job with a better work-life balance, and not having to go for entire weeks working from 7am to 12am or later doing production work and not seeing my family. I really really love the job as I mentioned in a previous post. But it was just not something I could envision myself doing for a long time.
Thus, in 2015, I decided I was going to go into Social Work. Somehow between then and now, I got the opportunity to go on Logos Hope for a 3-month short term programme. However, since my trip on Logos Hope was only happening in August, that meant I had almost half a year to spare. And so after talking to my youth pastor, I decided to join the church as an intern for 3 months starting in March. It was a really wonderful experience as I got to see the inner workings of a church, and got exposed to different ministries as well. Through this, I got to help prepare for the church camp, and also got to join the Children’s Ministry as a helper (and this year, I’ve also taken on the role of teaching in CM), among other things. We did weekly devotions every Tuesday morning, and it was nice to hear from the team about things they had learnt or discovered as they read the Word of God.
In August, I embarked on my first ever (and longest too) mission trip on Logos Hope. I had no idea what to expect, but I had the time of my life there. It was really great to be able to minister to people, simply talking and being there for them. I was also able to challenge myself to step out of my comfort zone. I performed and connected with the visitors in Taiwan, went on a prayer walk in Penang, and visited an orphanage and a home church in Myanmar. And in between all this, I got to work with the most amazing team onboard the bookfair. Sure there were time where I felt useless and had no idea what I was doing there or what my purpose was. But times like these, I can only remember that God had sent me there for a purpose, I may not know, but God knows, and that is all that matters.
When I came back in October, I was in sort of a limbo period. Not knowing what comes next, all I could do was rest and start applying for jobs. Though, honestly, I did a lot more resting than applying! I think I applied for a total of 10 jobs in a period of 3 months! Hah. But anyway, after 3 interviews at different places, I’m glad to say that I was finally offered a job. And a huge plus was that this was the position that i liked the most and was most hopeful and excited about.
Looking back, I can honestly say that, everything that has happened to me so far, was really by the grace of God. God led me to Logos Hope, led me to work in my church office, and these 2 have, I believe, ultimately led me to this organisation that I will be working for. How do I know and believe that? I actually applied for this position back in July, but had not received any reply then. I only got the interview and offer after updating my resume when I came back, and these 2 experiences were of interest to my interviewer as she kept asking me about them. (It’s a Christian organisation too!). Therefore I can honestly say that I can see God’s hand in my life and He has been really good to me. There were times that I felt so completely far away from Him, that I’d thought He’d abandoned me. But no. This really reminds me of poem “Footprints in the Sand”
Footprints in the Sand
One night I dreamed a dream.
As I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
One belonging to me and one to my Lord.
After the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that at many times along the path of my life,
especially at the very lowest and saddest times,
there was only one set of footprints.
This really troubled me, so I asked the Lord about it.
“Lord, you said once I decided to follow you,
You’d walk with me all the way.
But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I don’t understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me.”
He whispered, “My precious child, I love you and will never leave you
Never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you.”
– by Mary Stevenson
PS. on a lighter note, I think it’s really annoying but funny that, when I had so much time (before I found a job), I was bored but could not find a decent drama to watch or rewatch. But now that I will be starting work soon (in a week’s time), I suddenly have so many dramas that I want to watch, both old and new lol. 8 of them, at last count. Sigh
PPS. Am really annoyed that I can’t find all my fav winter stuff and my country road bag. Meh. Bag and clothes, where art thou?