I miss you

Was just browsing through my sister’s wedding photos (abt 4 or 5 years ago) last night, when I came across this one.

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And then it occurred to me that in future, when I get married, you won’t be there. It pains me that I won’t get to see you smiling so happily on my wedding day, that you won’t be able to join in my joy and happiness. I miss you gong gong.

I’m sorry that I’ve never taken the time to sit down and talk to you before.

I’m sorry that in the past, every time you or popo ask me something, I always brushed you guys aside and never answered properly.

I’m sorry that I did not spend more time with you.

I miss you and I love you.

 

 

 

had to stop writing this post halfway cos I was in school and close to tears as i wrote it. had to continue back at home.

Family

After the scare I had 2 days ago regarding my grandfather, I realised how important family is to me. Although it wasn’t the first time that it happened and he was sent to the hospital, but it’s the first time it’s happened since I’m overseas. Suddenly all I could think of was what will happen if he really passed away just like that. I was about to take a nap when I saw the whatsapp message telling me he’d been sent to the A&E the night before. I just started panicking and crying and hoping and praying that everything will be okay. And then I thought about how┬áI didn’t even say goodbye to him before I left.. and also, I can’t even remember the last time I had a proper conversation with my grandparents..

But thank God everything is alright for now, he’s stopped passing out blood and has been discharged.

All I want to do when I go back is to hug my grandparents and tell them how much I love them. And I want to spend time with them before I leave for another year of studies in Aussie.