Goodbye 2016. Hello 2017.

2016 really seemed like it passed by in a flash! Where did the year go lol. But honestly, looking back, I think 2016 has been a rather good year. I:

  1. Started full time work in Habitat for Humanity Singapore. This is probably the highlight of my 2016. My first full time job! And I think I’m really really fortunate and blessed to be doing something I enjoy and also to have such awesome coworkers! And come February, I’ll have worked here for a whole year! Crazy lol. It really feels like I only just started work yesterday.
  2. Taught in Sunday School. Honestly still terrified of teaching hahaha. Am always afraid that I’d say/teach the wrong thing, or that my lessons won’t be interesting enough for the kids. But I’m so thankful for encouraging co-teachers, and that though some of the kids may be quite a handful, they’re honestly all really sweet and fun kids to be with! Thankful for the opportunity to teach them!
  3. Walked alongside 2 new-ish girls in Youth. It was really quite challenging at times because of my (and their) introvertedness. Also, same as above, afraid of saying/teaching the wrong thing to them. My prayer is that I’ll be able to break down walls (both mine and theirs) and walk closer with them 🙂
  4. Went on multiple holidays with family and friends! There was Hong Kong with the Melbourne gang in January, Hainan homecoming (homegoing? LOL) in March with the family, My first house building (Batam Build) project in June, Malaysia with the parents in September, Australia with the cousins in November, Church camp in Malaysia in December, and a final Malaysian getaway with the parents and godparents to end 2016! That’s like a holiday every 2-3 months hahaha! No wonder my leave ran out so fast!
  5. Decided I needed to keep fit and exercise, so I started going to the gym to work out! Though every single time I go I wonder why I’m torturing myself like that LOL! But I’m thankful for a good trainer who always encourages me and never lets me give up!
  6. Also decided to start learning the Guzheng again after 8 years! Took my grade 5 exam in December (while feeling super unprepared!) and passed with Merit LOL. That was a nice surprise because apparently the examiner was super strict, and I really thought I’d fail lol.

Yup that about sums up my 2016. There were many other things too of course. I feel like I’ve done so much is this past year and I’m so grateful to be able to do so!

So, goodbye 2016. And hello 2017.

Please continue to be good to me 🙂

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It’s been 6 months!

Oh wow time has really flown by this year…In the blink of an eye, I’ve already been working for 6 months! There’s really so much to give thanks to God for.

It is really amazing to see how He has sustained me and helped me all this time at work. Couple of examples:

  1. Times where it seemed like my cleaning session was going to be a mess, but things turned out well in the end.
  2. The time when I had high rate of volunteer and Champions (our regular volunteers) drop out, but everything kinda worked out in the end because there was also a homeowner who pulled out of the session last minute.
  3. The other time that there was a homeowner drop out last minute on cleaning day (just last week actually, lol), and we randomly met a Lions Befriender at the void deck, and he was able to help us approach 2 seniors on his list, and they were willing to let us go in and help clean their houses even though it was so last minute!
  4. Good work colleagues!!!!! Still think it’s really amazing how there is like no politics in our office! It’s most probably because everyone has the same goal in mind – to put God’s love into action, by bringing people together to build (or in our case, clean) homes, communities and hope.

Also, one thing that I really liked about starting work was, having time (and more importantly, money LOL!) to pursue interests and things that I never had the time to do before! I’ve managed to take up Guzheng lessons again (It’s been 8 long years since I’ve touched it in Secondary school), and I’ve also started gymming more regularly (trying to keep fit heh!) The downside, I guess, is that with all this extra money, I’ve also been online shopping a lot :/ bad habit that I really need to curb..

The other downside, and the far more important one, is that after starting all these activities, I’ve not been spending too much time with God, and it’s something I really really want to work on! Going to start setting aside time everyday to do my QT, read the word, and talk to God. Hoping to start reading more christian lit too..have bought so many books from Logos Hope, but it’s all just sitting on my shelf lol.

Father, I thank You for sustaining me all this time, and for helping me so much even though I’m so unworthy. Give me the discipline to set aside (and follow) time every day to spend with You, and grant me the desire to want to know You more and more.

2015 Reflections and Thanksgiving

This post is long overdue lol. Have been meaning to write this since 2 weeks ago, but was never able to get started.

Anyway, I was looking back at this past year, and I realised, that I’ve done so incredibly little, and yet I’ve done so much too. You see, in actuality, I’ve only done 2 things last year, the internship in church, and the mission trip on Logos Hope. And yet, these 2 things have given me so much experience, more than I’ve asked for, and they have also step by step led me to where I am today.

So I graduated in December 2014, and had no idea what I wanted to do, apart from the fact that I knew I did not want to do anything that was related to my degree in Mass Communication. Not that I didn’t like the work. I love it. But I also decided that I wanted a job with a better work-life balance, and not having to go for entire weeks working from 7am to 12am or later doing production work and not seeing my family. I really really love the job as I mentioned in a previous post. But it was just not something I could envision myself doing for a long time.

Thus, in 2015, I decided I was going to go into Social Work. Somehow between then and now, I got the opportunity to go on Logos Hope for a 3-month short term programme. However, since my trip on Logos Hope was only happening in August, that meant I had almost half a year to spare. And so after talking to my youth pastor, I decided to join the church as an intern for 3 months starting in March. It was a really wonderful experience as I got to see the inner workings of a church, and got exposed to different ministries as well. Through this, I got to help prepare for the church camp, and also got to join the Children’s Ministry as a helper (and this year, I’ve also taken on the role of teaching in CM), among other things. We did weekly devotions every Tuesday morning, and it was nice to hear from the team about things they had learnt or discovered as they read the Word of God.

In August, I embarked on my first ever (and longest too) mission trip on Logos Hope. I had no idea what to expect, but I had the time of my life there. It was really great to be able to minister to people, simply talking and being there for them. I was also able to challenge myself to step out of my comfort zone. I performed and connected with the visitors in Taiwan, went on a prayer walk in Penang, and visited an orphanage and a home church in Myanmar. And in between all this, I got to work with the most amazing team onboard the bookfair. Sure there were time where I felt useless and had no idea what I was doing there or what my purpose was. But times like these, I can only remember that God had sent me there for a purpose, I may not know, but God knows, and that is all that matters.

When I came back in October, I was in sort of a limbo period. Not knowing what comes next, all I could do was rest and start applying for jobs. Though, honestly, I did a lot more resting than applying! I think I applied for a total of 10 jobs in a period of 3 months! Hah. But anyway, after 3 interviews at different places, I’m glad to say that I was finally offered a job. And a huge plus was that this was the position that i liked the most and was most hopeful and excited about.

Looking back, I can honestly say that, everything that has happened to me so far, was really by the grace of God. God led me to Logos Hope, led me to work in my church office, and these 2 have, I believe, ultimately led me to this organisation that I will be working for. How do I know and believe that? I actually applied for this position back in July, but had not received any reply then. I only got the interview and offer after updating my resume when I came back, and these 2 experiences were of interest to my interviewer as she kept asking me about them. (It’s a Christian organisation too!). Therefore I can honestly say that I can see God’s hand in my life and He has been really good to me. There were times that I felt so completely far away from Him, that I’d thought He’d abandoned me. But no. This really reminds me of poem “Footprints in the Sand”

Footprints in the Sand

One night I dreamed a dream.
As I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
One belonging to me and one to my Lord.

After the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that at many times along the path of my life,
especially at the very lowest and saddest times,
there was only one set of footprints.

This really troubled me, so I asked the Lord about it.
“Lord, you said once I decided to follow you,
You’d walk with me all the way.
But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I don’t understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me.”

He whispered, “My precious child, I love you and will never leave you
Never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you.”

– by Mary Stevenson

PS. on a lighter note, I think it’s really annoying but funny that, when I had so much time (before I found a job), I was bored but could not find a decent drama to watch or rewatch. But now that I will be starting work soon (in a week’s time), I suddenly have so many dramas that I want to watch, both old and new lol. 8 of them, at last count. Sigh

PPS. Am really annoyed that I can’t find all my fav winter stuff and my country road bag. Meh. Bag and clothes, where art thou?

Bored

I’ve been feeling really, really bored the past few days! It got so bad that last night, I actually had a random itch to do math problem sums LOL and I even entertained the thought of going down to Popular and buying a math assessment book. Something wrong with me hahaha!

But seriously though..I think this has got to do with my life on the ship heh. Before going on the ship, I know I could have done what I’m doing now and not have a problem with it..like I can nua and laze in bed all day doing nothing for weeks and not be bored. But life on the ship was always so fast paced..there was something to do all the time. From working, to going out to do ministry, or even the many community events we have at night/during sailing. After having that kind of lifestyle for 3 months, it seems harder to just nua and do nothing at home lol..time to look for a job..meh.

 

(almost) end of degree reflections

And so in approximately 19 days, I will be taking my last flight back from Melbourne to Singapore as a student. I really don’t know what to feel about this lol.

I’ve spent some of my best and happiest moments in Melbourne, made some of the best friends I’ve ever had, and created so many good memories that I can look back on many years down the road. I like to think I’ve grown so much during this time as well, learning how to live alone, learning how to live with a housemate (actually there wasn’t much learning involved in this haha since both Dan and I have super bo chup, or rather, similar personalities so there’s nothing we had to compromise about/nothing to argue about so to speak lol, and I’m really thankful for that). Melbourne was also where I could grow in my faith. I guess, living away from my family, I was forced to think about my life and my faith by myself, forced to make my own decisions, and was able to make a whole bunch of friends in church that have been so encouraging and loving.

But at the same time, it’s also where I’ve felt the loneliest I’ve probably ever felt in my life, away from my family and friends in Singapore. The first semester here was probably the hardest. Not having any friends in the same uni was hard because there was no one to turn to to help, no one to talk to if I’m lost, no one who would understand (what I’m talking about) when I wanted to rant and complain about school work.

I guess though, looking back, the good times definitely outweigh the bad, and I’ve really come to love this place that has been my home the past 1 and a half years. Of course, I don’t love it as much as Singapore HAHAHA.

Going home is something I’ve been looking forward to, but I can’t help but feel apprehensive, worried about my future in Singapore. The biggest worry probably is that I still haven’t figured what I want to do as a job when I return. Meh. But in the mean time, I guess my biggest worry right now should be finishing my 6 looming assignments (2 due each week from this week onwards), cleaning the house, and packing my stuff, all within the next 3 weeks lol. 加油 me.